Hey my name is shaylene evans, I'm 14 yers old my birthday is on march 5th and i was born in the year 1991.My parents are veronica and christopher evans i have 3 younger brothers(that i know of) Sheldon, chris, stanley.I lived in norway house most of my life so far but i did move to thompson for about two years i live in the most boringest part of town for me anyways. I'm in grade 7 again, I only like going to school because of my friends and cousins(well when they're not hating on me.)i go to school to get away from my family. I go to helen betty osborne school at first it was kinda big but now it's not that big. my math teacher Miss.Broderick is really cool she's a fun teacher she makes learning fun for us i never used to like math it was kinda hard for me but now its not. My favorite artists and songs! Hey peoplez my favorite artist is i would have to say avril lavigne,chingy,usher,alicia keys,good charlotte,blink 182,eminem,ashlee simpson,nelly,beyonce',ciara,simple plan,Ludacrus,linkin park,keshia chante,50 cent,young bunk,loydd banks,G-Unit,.....My fav song is down by simple plan?i really like this song b/c my bf sended it to me and i also like osng like unpredictable,bad boy,let the music take you by keshia chante,i also like all of avril lavigne songs i mean all of them i mostly like losing grip its a kool song. How im feeling I dont really know how im feeling right now so...i'll holla at ya back when i do. My hopes,dreams hey ya'llz i dont also know what i want to be when i grow up.but i know that one day i want to own my very own place like a resturaunt or something like that. My Family I dont like my family that much I mean who does well if they were a perfect yeah,I want to move away from my family as soon as possible my mom and dad I just dont like them I hate keeping my brothers all the time.I mean ALL the time. Some Poems Of Mine :THIS ONE IS CALLED WHATEVER: whatever you say goes,whatever you want concider it yours.whatever you fell tell me,if i listen then i'm yours to be.i really want to know all about you,so i can give out my heart to you.i'm really glad me and you are together,whatever happends your in my heart forever. :ALONE: She slams her bedroom door As tears run down her cheek Breathless as she falls Her arms feeling weak She grabs her shiny blade And slices across her wrists One slice, two slice, three slice, four The blood drips off her fingertips As her blood drips to the ground She slowly closes her eyes She feels the rush of relief And remembers all the lies She sits in a corner all alone Her crimson blood still flowing Tears freely drip onto the floor As her depression keeps on growing She wants to forget life And all its painful things To float freely into the sky With her magical angel wings So as she lies on the floor In her own puddle of blood She slowly dazes off While the puddle continues to flood. :A HURTING LETTER: Tears are falling from my eyes, as I sit and cry at night. blood is dripping from my heart, as I try to write. I have so much pain, I'm hurt a lot, I can't explain all this, I'm just falling apart. no one understands, I don't know where to start and I don't know where to end. love hurts so much, like a thousand stabbing knives, especially when you have all this pain, that you wish you could deny. I'm so sore right now, my heart is racing fast, I wish I could forget all this, and leave it in the past. but there will always be a memory, a memory of us both, how we both loved each other, and in my heart I'll hold. I will always hold this memory even though you won't care, and the scar you left in my heart will always be there. :UNTITLED: Why cant i talk to people, when the ask me if i am ok. why do i say yes, well all i feel is depressed everyday. why do i act fine, when i no i am really not. i block out the questions and comments, thinking i can cope with the lot. :ME: why cant i be normal, and have a happy life. why cant i express my feelings, without resorting to the knife. that shiny blade that helps me so, to hide my problems and what i fear, i really wish that i could stop, for the peole i hold dear. why cant i stop these thoughts on death, why is it i want to die. and can you tell me exactly, why my life feels like a lie. i really need someone to talk to, someone to relate to me. someone who cares enough to realise i want to be free. :TEENAGE LIFE: I need a normal teenage life, not one filled with pain. i want to be a normal girl, not have days covered by rain. i need everyone to understand, exactly how i feel. that everything is so unfair, i wish this wasn't real. i cant take screaming shouting swearing, i need to share my fears, and concentrate on life, i dont care about my peers. i need to stop and think of me, i need to sort out my head, i need to stop resorting ot the knife, or i'm going to end up dead. :LOCKED UP: Just put me in my room Lock the door Throw away the key Lock me up there. Don't care what happens Just take away my life. Take away everything I don't care anymore. Just take My friends My family Everything I want to be alone I want everyone to leave I don't want anyone I don't want anything Lock me up Throw away the key. Get rid of me Get rid of the pain Who cares about me Who cares what I think Who cares how I feel Does it look like I care? Cause I don't I don't care anymore I don want to be locked up. Away from the world Maybe someday I could be away from the world Away from the pain Away from everything and everyone I would be well off Everyone would be better off Everyone would be happy Everyone wouldn't Care Lock me up Let me die alone Let me live alone Let me be Alone. Does it seem I care? I want it to happen I want to be alone I want to be locked up by myself forever. :ADDICTION: Sitting on my bathroom floor with aching pain all over I cant even see who is trying to help me cause im starting to slip away Tears fall from above as they fall to their knees To kiss my cold lips good-bye My heart beat just stopped and my eyes are now closed and the tears i can no longer taste The white cloth they lay over me is now drenched in my blood and the tears of the one that i kissed The jar just rolled out from under my bed and it's emptiness shows... shows thats it's clear I'm gone from an addiction The adiction of hate and the blade that lay closely near. :I STILL LOVE YOU: I heard he found someone new.....and that i really never ment anything to him...all he ever said....everything i believed....was all a lie....life goes on they say....he wasnt worth anything....just move on....how can one move on when they were in love i ask....your too young to know what love is they reply....thats why i want him back so bad thats why i need to see his picture....thats why i cant get rid of him for good....i miss him everyday more then anything....and even if i know that he never will miss me or think twice about what he ment too me....i still love him with everything i got....last night was going to be my night outta this place...then i thought about what he would say...if he would even care alittle...i dont think he would but i like to dream of it....holding on is my way to tell all of you that i can do this and that i can get thought this life...and be a winner....i miss you so much.....and it kills me to write these words.....love ya miss you... Things that are Important to me. The stuff that are importabt to me are my friends and my brothers even though they can piss me off sometimes i still love them thats the only reason why im still here.I also care for my cousins too like tashina,jordan,felicia,kesha,my lil bro stanley. My problems The only stuff that are bothering me are my mom and dad my mom went drinking and i told my dad she didnt and like a month l8r he found out and im getting in trouble just because i didnt tell my dad where my mom went and not to long ago he freaked out at my mom and he snapped at the computer he threw it down and he went to were my mom was going to skool and told her tht he threw down the computer and he said he was going to trash her car next and i was at home when he snapped at the computer and he really scared me i phoned at my nanez place and while i was talking to her i started crying i dont know why? but my mom came home like right after i phoned my nane and we almost left outta town but i was tellin my mom i wanted to live with my nane and she said i could,and even go to skool there but after the new years.