Thanks for stopping in. Allow me to tell you alittle about myself. I am a married Christian women who loves the Lord and her family very much. I am a mother of two children who I know are a true blessing and a gift from the Lord. My faith is now very strong but I have to admit there was a time in my life it was not.

I was a religious person who went to church but I never did have a "true" relationship with Christ or at that time never knew what it meant to have a relationship with Christ.

As I look back I could see my life in some shape or form searching for something or someone to fill a void that was there within me. I did my share of some drugs, I became active with the occult, searching knowing I needed something. I found that the spirit world is very real and very dangerous. After years of trying to start a family I became pregnant with my first child and half way into my pregnancie I gave birth to my son who passed away. This was a very painful time in my life. I continued with the occult and was rather mastering it if you will, very well. I was what people call a "fortune teller" or a "Medium". I also could at the time speak with the died. Some years went by and I became pregnant once again. My husband and I were so happy. We have been trying for years and have been going to fertility specialist for years as well. Sometimes every other day for months on end. With this baby I was hospitalized shortly into my pregnancie and was made to stay off my feet. In the middle of my 5th month, labor begain and the doctors could not stop it. My husband and I were told by my doctor that the chances of the baby being born alive was very, very small because it was just to early. If the baby was to live there would be many problems. At that time we where asked that if the baby was to live would we want the medical staff to do all things possible to keep the baby alive? What a question. We both said yes, this was our baby,we have been fighting for and wanting so badly. When our daughter was born she was alive and trying her hardest to live. Eight years later I can still hear her fighting to breath. The medical staff worked on her and a half an hour later we lost her. My husband cryed for a very long time and I became very angry and bitter. I could not understand why, when we wanted children so badly. Why us?

I'm thankful for my dad, who at the time called me several times and was sharing Gods word with me. Remember, I was bitter and I didn't want to hear what he had to say to me about God or heaven. Then there was one phone call that I had with my dad that really changed my life. My dad asked me if I ever wanted to see my baby's again? I thought at the time "what a question," but of course I did. He then told me how I needed to turn my life over to the Lord and turn from the occult and just trust the Lord as my Savior. That is the time I became a "true child of God". When I turned my life fully over to the Lord. When I did this, my burdens we're lifted. I finally recieved the peace that I was looking for.

Since then I no longer am a part of the occult. The occult again is real very real. I know that the things which I experienced were not "spirit guides" placed here to help and give me insight but they are angels of the devil. No man knows tomorrow but Christ.
Christ holds the future and only Christ.

Yes, I still think about my two presious little babys that I have lost but who are now in Heaven waiting for me and they're daddy. I know now, one day I will beable to hold my children in my arms once again. Before I knew Christ as my Savior, I didn't know if I'd go to heaven. I know I was lost but I thank the Lord for he has found me. I am no longer on a search. I know with out a doubt that I will be in heaven and I will see the Lord and my babys again.

If you are searching and looking for answers, please bring it before the Lord. He truely is the answer. He will forgive you of all your sins and make your life a peaceful one. He will be there to lean on and one that will guide you.

I hope as I write this that it will touch your heart. I pray that it too will give you hope.

If you don't know the Lord today, then I ask that you ask Him into your life.
Confess your sins to Him. We are all sinners. He will forgive you and give you a fresh slate. All you do is pray a simple prayer and recieve Him as your Lord and Savior.
If you do recieve Him today, then please contact me so I can praise Him with you.

Since Christ has come into my life I have been blessed with two beautiful children. My husband also recieved Christ on the same day I did. He is a blessing as well.

Thanks for stopping by and visiting with me. I pray that this has touched your heart and life in some way.
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